Impenetrable to light.

I’m not happy.

Neither am I, he says.

The tightness of my heart and mind relaxes.

The relentless aching of expectation ceases.

One single white petal – the size of a tear drop – loosens and settles in its place.

God, I can’t do this anymore. I don’t know what I want, but I know it’s not this.

In one burst, a hundred petals splay open, and a voice drops out of them, 

whispering to my soul – “seek beauty”.

I leave this place. This home that taught me much, but never held me. This love that never bloomed until I gave it to myself. The order that kept me silent. The apathy that suffocated challenge. The fear that held a brilliant mind hostage. 

The petals…soft and delicate. Gentle in scent. Sturdy in their base. Rousing a long dormant heart, sparking the need to explore my unknown. 

emc ‘19 

By the Author: kittyskittle86


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